wow
four years ago today i had my first panic attack.
i can't effing believe that was four years ago. god, that was awful. i was sweating like a crazy person, i couldn't use my hands to pick up my pizza.
thus began a couple years of weirdness. i still get a little panicky in groups every now and again, but i've mostly been able to keep calm. i think it's been almost two years since my last one.