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so, i broke down and rolled a cig. kurt got some drum to save money and i rolled one. i really didn't like how it made me feel, but i think this set me back a couple days? i don't know. i'm gunna pretend it didn't cuz i didn't like it, but i think if we were on record, i would have to start over.
i told someone tonight that i was considering this a physical experiment. just seeing and feeling how my body would react. so that's how i dealt with it. i won't do that again. i didn't like it at all.