resolve
last year, my resolution was to perfect my written communication at work. i had noticed that, too often, people sent short and almost unintelligible emails; obviously not proofed prior to sending. i vowed not to turn into that person. it happened once or twice anyway, but i think overall, i did well.
this year, my resolution is more important; i'm going to quit smoking. in the past 6 years, i've cut down to 8-10 cigarettes a day, smoking only when i'm not at work. this fact creeps up to me as an excuse not to quit because the american cancer society considers me a light smoker; but it's not a very good excuse.
i'm going to try cold turkey; i realize that attempting to quit without aid is probably a lost cause, but if i do it this way first and fail, then at least i'll know that i tried. i don't really like gum or sticking things to my arm anyway; and i certainly don't like pills that make you suicidal, have nightmares, and give you hives or whatever chantix is purported to do.
i have figured out that i need to become acutely aware of my triggers, most of which are congratulatory. like, i made it through a day at work (this will be the hardest), i knit 100 rows, i drove 100 miles, i finished a meal, i painted the kitchen for an hour.
almost all of my (non-work) friends smoke. hanging out with them will be difficult... luckily for me, i'm extremely picky and don't have any friends who smoke my kind; so bumming isn't much of an option.
it's been 15 hours since my last cigarette and i don't yet feel like ripping anyone's head off.