apologies
i forgot to tell you about the great things in my life. i have someone wonderful very close to me who has helped me immensely and without him i would be a crumbled mess. i owe him my sanity and so much more.
i also have my home to be thankful for and, although it's moderately messy right now, it's still standing and it's still mine. and the dogs really aren't that stressed now that they have a couch to lay on.
i'll be more comfortable when there's order and regularity.