freaking out
i've been on the verge of throwing up all day.
you don't need the details*. i just need to remember how this feels so when it's all over i can look back and see that it was worth it.
* i have $151 to my name, i am losing a roommate, i have to come up with $550 to close on my refi, i have 4 months to pay kurt another $2,000 for the house, my dogs are stressed out, my brain is being very tricksy with logic and reality, i feel like i'm drowning.